now we’re back in business.

now im back to my dreams, regained my aspirations, fasten my balls, cuz were off to another ride.

sounds exciting? not really.. just cracking bones.

i need to do this blog for fifteen minutes so.. hmmm.. im kinda pressured, why? i wont tell you! i really sound ecstatic today but believe me im not. i need to do a one-man-show in front of the whole world and you expect me to do it great?!

im picking up where i last dropped it.. i have decided to step up and be me again. this optimistic kind of alien we always knew.. nothing will change.. no one have to change.

im starting my new script called “the mime”, which is all about a girl who wants to be a silent performer but is blocked by her own family and friends.. this story will be all about determination and laughs even for the hard times. ill have a little twist at the end,.. some reality bites.

ill have updates for this, i think post some post too, and it will be appreciated if you can post comments.. cuz hey! this is our story.

got to go. charmaine

toodles.

gee… time’s running out. grow up little ms. dreamhead.

i just watched “great expectations”. the movie where a boy is so in love with his childhood friend. but then she left. well, im not here to tell the whole story, im here to think about something, something that the story left me.. hmmm. hanging.

there was this part where the guy, chose to grow up and forget about the past, –all his dreams, fears, aspirations, expectations.

i think its time to grow up too.. all my life i’ve been longing to be someone that will leave a legacy, i have wanted to see the sunny side of the world, a life that my inspirations promised me… in my dreams it is a heartbeat away. in reality, its better unknown.

i want to be this, i want to be that. even my mother ends up laughing at the absurdity of my spontaneous mood swings. i want to do everything that i can, play piano, direct movies, dance ballet, sing, talk, walk paint.. i will share everything to the world… but things do get scary when life tells you to do things that will make you alive, practically.

everyone knows everything, that is why everyone is greedy. living without anything in a harsh world.

so tell me. do i have grow up? do we have to grow up?

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if we’ll just listen, breakthroughs and phenomenons will be as normal as cereals.

copycat.

i am really having a hard time watching the days go by. though it looks simpler thinking about the concept than experiencing the real drama. forever is not as good as everybody thought it was. its an oblivion, it is a more complicated version of watching the days go by.

so my advice for this summer, live the life like it was meant for stars. then die afterwards when the school starts..

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by this very moment, im solving a Rubik’s cube (well besides typing in the computer). it is the most popular and clever puzzle ever made. but as i solve it again and again, day by day, its not really that hard when you already know the algorithm. solving real problems with real solutions is not even close to the cube’s intellectual spin. its way to far.

i really hope my family wont let go just because of these problems. so help us god.

shoot!! being bored is tiring, no, really!!

whoo…. summer!

so tingin wala tlgang dapat ikatuwa pag summer.. unless marami kng pera. (halata naman na ako wala db?)

at dhl wala akong ginagawa, ginugugol ko ang aking munting panahon sa panonood ng pelikula..

gumawa naman ako ng listahan, na sa tingin ko ay magandang panuorin ngaung summer..

-ghost rider

-how to make an american quilt

-step up2

-almost famous

-drum line

-rock star

-persuit of happyness

-north country

-bubble boy

and xempre..

kasunod nyan ay mga summer song (well bukod sa sunburn)

dont let anyone trash you on the side cuz its summer and youre legally worthless!

sorry lolo, and yeah.. goodbye.

cguro nga.. mali ako nun.

theres a lot of it where it came from.

matagal tagal na rin akong hindi nakapagpost. well, kaya lng naman ako bumisita kc gusto kong malaman mo na nagkamali na naman ako.

namatay ung lolo ko nung Lingo. (hindi to tulad nung iniisip mo. hindi ko sya pinatay) alam ng isang kaibigan ko na matagal ko nang hinihiling na mamatay xa. pero nung mangyari yun, ni wala sa hingap na inakala kong luluha ako pag namatay xa. i guess you can really never tell what will happen.

isa lang talaga nasa isip ko nun. sana mapatawad nya ako sa lahat ng nagawa at inisop ko na masama sa kanya. please learn from my mistake, para hindi ka magsisi pagnawala na xa.

oi paborito ko to oh.. i can sing it to anybody and even to myself when i really need help.

confused. but happy! but confused.

i hate myself.

i want to change, well i guess not for myself..

for the good of everyone else.

well thats not change,  thats faking people in full force.

toodles.

eheads GALORE.

alam pare ko. alam kong babasahin mo to. mahal ko ang eheads. alm mu bang umiyak ako nung nalaman kong ayaw na nilang bumilik.

hindi alam ng mga tao. sila ang pinakamagaling na banda sa nabuhay sa mundo. mas magaling sa paramore, fob, urbandub, at sa kahit anu pang banda.

alam mu ba kung bakit ang pinakapaborito kong member ay raimund dahil sa 2:38 ng julie tearjerky..

nalulungkot ako. sana may banda pang tulad nila, hanap ako ng hanap.. wala na talga.. tulungan mo ko.. gusto ko silang maibalik.

kaya ilalagay ko dito lahat ng kailangan ko…

trip to jerusalem.

sadly gender matters.

 me with a bunch of girls. in red!!

minsan…

mahirap makisama sa mga sasabihin nla, hindi sa kanila, dun sa sinasabi nila... ... palgay ko hindi mo yun nakuha.

expound.

pag babae ka.. at puro lalaki kasama at kaibigan mo. dalawa lng ang iisipin ng tao sa iyo.

1. lesbian ka.

2. boyfriend mo (or anything with the same concept) ung isa sa mga kasama mo sa grupo..

nakakainis na rin minsan.. at minsan inisip ko na rin kung sana naging lalaki nalng ako..

hmm..

mas gusto kc ng tatay ko ang anak na lalaki.

hindi ko kailangang magpakahirap sa panganganak.

i can sleep with my male friends.. sleepovers!! <n hndi ganun ksaya pag babae ang ksama>

pwede akung magbanda

pwede akung umuwi ng mas late..

at hindi ganun khgpit khit only child ka..

canyouimagine.

how my life would turn out if im a boy. i will never love him.

charmaine toodles.

nyaiks.

sana lng naitama ko na yung mga ginawa ko.

alam mo ba na ang hirap hirap magpanggap na ayos ka lang… pero kailangan mong gawin yun dahil may mga taong mas kailangan ng mga taong dadamay kesa sa iyo..

 ngunit sa kasamaang plad isa ako dun sa mga taong mas pipiliing dumamay at mabaliw kesa kaawaan.

comments.. hmm. suck.

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anh1990 (2 hours ago) Show Hide Marked as spam

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Be positive, be positive people, for give and forget. LIve happy!!!!!!!

Holyfiremikey (3 hours ago) Show Hide Marked as spam

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But I did the same thing to you as well in my replies, I’m sorry kelalala, I hope we can look past this, because I don’t hate you, if someone ever teases you about being Chinese, I would feel bad about that too.Take care

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I apologize kelelala. I hope we can make peace, because if anyone ever teased or disrespected a Chinese, I would defend that Chinese person as much as I would a Korean, American, Japanese, African American, Mexican, whoever it may be, I would feel bad that any ethnicity would get mocked.I didn’t care that you teased me about being Korean, I cared that you were teasing an ethnicity.

Holyfiremikey (3 hours ago) Show Hide Marked as spam

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Hey man, I realized, I’ve contributed to the escalation of our argument, that has just turned in to plain insults.So for that, I want to say I’m really really sorry, I shouldn’t have said a lot of the things I said to you. I feel really bad for insulting you in different ways, I lost control and for that, in the ways I’ve offended you,

highflyer (6 hours ago) Show Hide Marked as spam

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Lol, i’m an average asian that SPEAKS malaysian

kelelala (11 hours ago) Show Hide Marked as spam

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ok, the meaning of ur id is: holyfreakinmonkey~
I have important things to do, and I have no time and interest to talk with a monkey, so enjoy ur spamming, monkey(u’d better do ur plastic surgery anyway)enjoy ur solo~monkey~hahahahaha

kelelala (11 hours ago) Show Hide Marked as spam

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Holyfiremikey, you are just an american borned monkey, indeed, you are dumb and ugly(watch yourself in the mirror, you stupid).do know what? there are an awful lot of ABC(American borned Chinese) in the US, and u guy just an american borned monkey, I know why you so angry, because you r a loser and what other ppl to respect u, however, no one respects u monkey, dumbass

kelelala (11 hours ago) Show Hide Marked as spam

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Holyfiremikey, you are really cheap, see the crap you put here(is there anyone spamming like you idiot?), and I believe you really need plastic surgery, because you really look ugly–that’s the truth.

Holyfiremikey (14 hours ago) Show Hide Marked as spam

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You’re making things up, look it up in your encyclopedia, I just did, and according to that, you’re wrong.

Holyfiremikey (14 hours ago) Show Hide Marked as spam

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If you’re saying people should know about a country, before they talk about it, why are you saying Britian and British is a language. Great Britain, is an island on the British Isles, not a language. British, can refer to the British peoples, or British english. But British alone is not a language, British english is a style of english, so the language is still not British, but english.